The Right Path
A few weeks ago, I was working on my book proposal and emailing it back and forth with my agent. My agent—every time I say that I feel like I did when I was first engaged and peppered my conversations with my fiancé.
In one of the emails, I wrote, “I just want to make sure I’m on the right path.” This part of the proposal was new to me, and I was worried I was doing it completely wrong.
My agent, (sorry couldn’t help myself) responded, “You ARE on the right path.”
Now, I’m pretty sure he was only referring to the small section of the proposal we were working on, so I didn’t ask if he also meant my writing career as a whole. I decided I would accept the double meaning as encouragement because I’ll take assurance anywhere I can find it these days even if that means reading into a simple phrase. But, I mean, he did emphasize the ARE.
Doubt is my new favorite sin. It used to be worry, but for the most part, I’ve beaten that monster down with prayer and realization of God’s provision in my life. I know doubting means I’m not being faithful, but what if this writing thing isn’t what God wants me to do. I know in my logical brain that He has shown me over and over that I am on the right path.
The ugly doubt monster loves to whisper in my ear. “Maybe, this is all about demonstrating perseverance for your children, or perhaps, it is about connecting people who you meet to further the Kingdom. Like connecting writer friends with the Women’s Ministries Director at my church. It might not be about you publishing books at all, so why are you wasting all this time?”
But my God is bigger and stronger and more faithful than the doubt monster. He orchestrates my successes with disappointments to lessen the blow. He helps me see the side benefits of following his plan. So I can be on the right path and enjoy the people I meet and the sights along the way. This writing journey isn’t just about me being a published author. God’s vision is never that narrow. I love seeing how he is using my writing journey to help other writers and speakers, to prepare me for His work, and to shower blessings on people I barely know.
I praise God for his long-suffering patience and his faithfulness. “His word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.” (Psalm 119:105) If I seek Him first and His righteousness, all these things will be given to me. (Matthew 6:33) Because I see how he clothes the grass of the fields and takes care of the birds of the sky, I know he is leading me right where he wants me with all I need to succeed. (Matthew 6:26, 28-30) For I am “confident of this, that He who began a good work in me will carry it to completion.” (Philippians 1:6)
So take that Doubt monster!
What are your doubts? How do you deal with them? Comment below. I’d love to continue this conversation with you.
Leslie, I so needed this today. Todd and I have been back in the states for 3 months now and I have been on the job hunt. I have applied for many jobs with no success or even an interview. So Doubt comes into play, maybe I’m not good enough anymore since I took three years off. Maybe they don’t want me because I’m to old, or they think I haven’t kept up with the healthcare changes since I’ve been gone! All these things roll through my thoughts morning, noon and night! But I know my God is bigger than my doubt! He knows the plans he has for us! Plans to prosper and not harm, plans to give us hope and a future! Jeremiah 29:11. I know my life is in Gods hands and so is my path! We both are on the right path!! I have to be still and listen and remember everything is in Gods timing!!! Love to you, Carlton and the kids!!! Keep doing the work of God!!! Your amazing!!!
Leslie, I so needed this today. Todd and I have been back in the states for 3 months now and I have been on the job hunt. I have applied for many jobs with no success or even an interview. So Doubt comes into play, maybe I’m not good enough anymore since I took three years off. Maybe they don’t want me because I’m to old, or they think I haven’t kept up with the healthcare changes since I’ve been gone! All these things roll through my thoughts morning, noon and night! But I know my God is bigger than my doubt! He knows the plans he has for us! Plans to prosper and not harm, plans to give us hope and a future! Jeremiah 29:11. I know my life is in Gods hands and so is my path! We both are on the right path!! I have to be still and listen and remember everything is in Gods timing!!! Love to you, Carlton and the kids!!! Keep doing the work of God!!! Your amazing!!!
Lynn, I’m so glad this spoke to you. I will be praying for you. He has something wonderful planned for you. Blessings, Leslie
Thank you for this. As you know, this writing journey takes forever and doubt most assuredly begins to creep in. You’ve helped me reset my vision and reminded me of Who I’m doing this for. Thanks, Leslie!
Wow- I think God asked you to write this just for me! I am half-joking as I know your message speaks to so many but honestly, I needed it. I have the same fears and doubts – not sure if it’s what I am meant to do, whether it will be “worth” the effort, or what simpler path I can take. I don’t have the answers but it’s such a comfort to know other people ask the same questions and most importantly, persevere through them.
Praying for you and all my writer friends every day. Love that God has put us together in this community.
Thank you Leslie, I love the title you have given doubt. I have made great strides in overcoming my worry habit…but the doubt monster certainly lurks at the doorway! I doubt I will, I doubt I can, and I allow the doubt monster to derail God’s intentions in my life, especially as it concerns my writing goals.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Thanks for the encouragement today.
This is such an interesting perspective on doubt. It can be so powerful. Thank you for the encouragement.
Even though I’m reading this a week after you posted it…it’s perfectly timed! God’s timing is perfect! As a woman and a mom, doubt is ever present in so much of what we do. Thanks for the reminder that our God is “bigger and stronger”!
God’s timing is perfect. I meant to do share this all last week, but today was the day I got to it. He must have been meant it just for you. Blessings.
Judging from the other comments left here, I’m not alone in struggling with doubts about whether my writing pursuits are truly God-directed. I admit it, I’m easily discouraged. Thank you for the gentle reminder of God’s faithfulness!